Welcome to my life!

Great news guys!

2011-03-07T18:30:00.002+08:00

Alright I have a great news to share! Guess what? I got accepted in Poly! Well I'll be studying full time diploma in Ngee Ann Poly, Hotel & Leisure Facilities Management! Woots! It was my 2nd choice though and I'm really happy that I got in! Well at least I don't have to worry much about my future now that I have a school to attend to. Cant wait man! New environment, new friends, new CCA etc! Woo! Thank god it's nearby to where I stay. So for now, I'll just wait for the enrollment package letter. Geez! Damn excited! Gotta buy more presentable smart clothes. No more NUMboy look (with the exception during SW and CCA). Haha. Speaking of CCA, what CCA should I join uh? Canoeing? Dragonboat or Band? Still deciding... Haha geez! I'm so damn excited! Alright, will update next time. Ciaoz!

I'm finally back!

2011-03-06T12:36:00.003+08:00

Hey people! I'm finally back! After a year ++ of hiatus, I've finally figured out my password for this blog. Well thats just an excuse. The main reason is that I'm just too lazy to update. Well the last time I updated was when I'm still serving the nation, guess what now? I've ORD-ed! ORD LOHHHHH!!! Its has already been 4 months. How time flies.

Okay here's an update to my life. I'm currently working part-time in NUM and I'm waiting for my Poly application results which will be out tomorrow. Am kinda excited and nervous at the same time cause tomorrow will determine my future. Wish me luck people! And not forgetting, I'm happily attached with Eugene Toh! My baby babi and guess what tomorrow is our 16 month anniversary! Surprising huh. Well, he's currently serving the nation in SAF as an Armoury Platoon Medic and he's in India now for some outfield training. 27 more days till he come back. Miss you love! Alright that's all for now. Shall update again tomorrow. Stay tune! ;)

Your history is mine.

2009-12-21T18:54:00.009+08:00

This is how it's been, this is how it will be
And when you wake up with him, remember when it was me
And I always will be waiting for you
And I know that you will never see...

That I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say...

Do you remember when, you used to laugh there with me
And now I've become the joke, a punchline's all I will be
And I always will be waiting for you
And I know that you will never see ...

That I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say...

You'll be waiting for the rest of your life
Just so you can finally hear me say
These words don't mean a thing but I'll say them anyway...

I can't break away from these chains to my heart
The further you push me the closer you are
Maybe I should try to let go
Maybe I should try to walk away
There's nothing left to say...

I gave up. I'm really really really tired...

The end of everything I loved...

2009-12-18T10:05:00.024+08:00

"That I'll never talk again, and I'll never love again..."

I just lost a friend and a lover thanks to myself. No words can describe how terrible I felt. I'm terminally depressed by the fact that things had to turn out this way. What have I fucking done?! Yes, put all the blame on me. I deserved it. I'm seriously at loss now. I don't even know what to do or say. Nothing could ever repair the damaged that I have done to you. All I can say is, I'm truly sorry and I really regret it. I kept hurting you time and time again and I don't wish to do this anymore...

Like you have said, you don't need a guy like me. I ain't a decent soul and I'm definitely not worth of your time, money and most importantly, your love. Guess I'm just not born to love or to be loved by anyone. Sigh. Thanks for the wonderful times and pleasant memories we've had. I'll appreciate and cherish all of that. I hope you'll find your happiness someday and please remember me for my good points. Forgive and forget me will you?

P.s: I still ♥ you and thats the reason why I have to let you go...

Missing in action

2009-11-19T18:19:00.017+08:00

Well I've havent been updating much recently cause I misplaced my memory card reader! I don't know where the fuck did I put it! Argh!
There's so many pictures (concerts,birthdays,outing,clubbing pics) to be uploaded. What a waste. Guess this shall be another empty yet boring post. I know right. Okay heck it.

Move on to the updates on my life. Well, I'm still recuperating at home. And oh, did I mention that my MC got extended till december? Yes it did. I've been busy going in and out of the hospital for my physio therapy session. Boring but what to do. Bo pian. Well, at least I made some progress. I could finally walk without crutches now. Just alil bit of complications, limping here and there. But its okay. I can manage. Am taking it one step at a time. =)

Anyways its the holidays season. Alot of activities I've been storing for. All I could think of is to party! Zoukout, Xmas, New year parties! Its time to shine again! Yeah bebehh! I can't wait. I guess that's about it. Will update again if I feel like it. Bye!

P.s: I ♥ my cute chin chin! xoxo

Halloween Madness

2009-11-01T13:43:00.036+08:00

Its Halloween people! Happy Halloween! As you all know, I'm skipping my Halloween this year due to my unstable condition but I guess its not a bad thing after all. Wanna know why?...

Cause I went to PLAY! =X Well not to club but a meet-up session with my clubmates cause I too wanna share the joyious occasion with them. So I met them at Maxwell food centre for supper. Seeing them in costumes makes me wanna laugh. So funny but cute luh. Haha. I had a great time with them eventhough it was just for a short while. Did their make up, drawing goatees, eye liners, touch up here and there at the very last minute. So fun luh! Haha!

The turnout at PLAY was OH AM GEE! It was so crowded that I decided to leave at about midnight cause there's no point for me to stay on when I can't even stand up and dance. But its okay luh, I'm cool with it cause there's always next time. It was nice meeting my peeps after sucha long time. Fret not guys, I'll be back very soon and I definately gonna steal the limelight again! Haha! Am so looking forward to ZoukOut, Xmas and New Year party!

Lets party & forget all the troubles away...

All outta angst

2009-10-28T21:07:00.016+08:00

Gosh! I don't know how I managed to survive at home for the past 3 weeks! I felt like dying just by rotting at home itself. Frustation, anger, sadness, loneliness, doubtfulness and a whole lot more have been going through my mind lately. I guess at any point of time now I may just go bonkers. Howells, sorry but I can't help it. Maybe I'm being too paranoid? I don't know. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone. All I want is to get up and stand up on my feet again. Sigh.

Anyways, Halloween is near and I don't wanna be stuck at home only to miss out the fun. I've always hated the feeling of being left out. Sigh. Apart from that, I guess things happened for a reason. Shall be an optimist and not to worry about a thing, cause everything little thing is gonna be alright. =)

Fall for you...

2009-10-22T17:42:00.058+08:00

My life is pretty much mundane nowadays. Nothing interesting to rant or boast about. Its either I'm on my bed, resting on the couch or prolly on my desktop the whole day. But its okay, cause nothing else matters when I'm in love. Oh what the heck. Haha.Am going for physio therapy next week hoping that I'd be able to walk without the help of crutches by the end of this month. Hopefully I could resume my life as normal as before. =)

Well well, recently some surprising reactions occured. Well, some of my campmates start texting, calling, chatting with me, asking on how's my surgery and stuffs. Awww how sweet. You guys must have been missing me alot huh? Haha! Anyway thanks for the concern guys. Appreciate it lots. No worries guys, I'll be back on the 9th cause I really miss CDA badly. NOT!

And oh another thing, my clubmates have been bugging me to attend the most craziest Halloween Party this year and I definitely don't wanna give it a miss. We're still planning on where to party though and I have no frigging idea on what to wear! I have this in mind though, a sick mad patient wrapped up in bloody bandages cause it kind of like suits me perfectly now given the state I'm in now. Sounds good right? Hahaha! Oh boy, I'm so SEXCITED!

And yes, Polo Boys is on tonight. WOOHOO!

Home alone...

2009-10-18T13:21:00.007+08:00

Its a lazy Sunday as usual. Been a whole long week eversince I stayed at home and I'm left with 3 friggin more weeks till my MC ends. Gosh! Tell me what can I do at home for 3 friggin weeks without going out??!! Sigh.

Guess what? I'm home alone again. No surprise huh? I must have been deprieved then. =/ Anyway, mom is out for some cousin's wedding reception, bro is out to work and I'm stuck all by myself at this jailhouse. Pity me right? Well am used to it already. If only, there were people around or prolly that someone special who would take care of me. Sigh. Dream on!

I don't know why but I've been having the runs for the past few days. Prolly because of the Anti-Biotics or maybe its just a natural cause by the surgery(thats what my missy says). But it really irritates the hell out of me. And not forgetting the numbness on my leg. Its killing me! Oh boy, I need my painkillers!

Somebody save me...

Start of somethin' new...

2009-10-17T16:27:00.046+08:00

Alright people, I was just too bored with my life now that I've decided to start blogging again. I guess blogging is the only way of expressing my emotions or whatever I have in mind. When words fail, blog speaks. Not sure about what others might think but heck whatever.

And yeah, to some of the people in past whom I once called "friends", I'm doing extremely fine without you guys, just so you all know. Thanks for nothing. And to all the current people who accepted me for who I am now, thanks for everything.

Okay here's the recent update. I just had a knee surgery last week due to a torn ligament. Well, I'm an active boy who loves playing all kind sports. In any sports, you are prone to all kinds of injuries right? Perhaps, I was just being too hyperactive and practically ignore all the safety precautions and that is what I've get in return. Sigh.

Anyway, the surgery went well and I'm still struggling with the state I'm in. My specialist gave me a month of MC(which I hope can extend longer). I know prolly some of you might think, "Wahh syiok uh got 1 month MC!!!" or "Hafiz chao keng sia!!!", but I tell you its definitely hell for me.

Well, I deserved a long break from camp life. Its not easy being an I/C. Try to put yourself in my shoes will you? Okay, gotta have my rest for now. Doctor advised me to minimise my movements and stay in bed most of the time. Boring!! Well, I'll update again once I feel like it. Chao!